Late at night I get these feelings. Not your average “happy, sad, upset, angry.” Strange feelings. Like you know when you’ve held your breath for too long and you just need to breath? Or when you’re swimming and try to touch the bottom and realize the water is deeper than you thought? I don’t know how else to explain them. It’s like a constant running out of air and not being able to put my feet on the ground. I don’t know if I have enough energy to deal with them anymore.

writing myself to sleep i don't know just ignore this